I try...

by Parker Koltchak

I'm a good artist, spelling champion, good student!!!

I try to reassure myself. But... I'll never have a good life. No one can have a good life, no friends, sitting, always alone, in an almost empty room, one window, one desk, one chair, one chalkboard. 

No one will be there for me!

 I will be there for me! I desperately hold on to that. 

I'm alone, alone, I'll always be alone, alone, alone... the word echos in my head...

But that doesn't mean you're lonely! I tell myself, frustrated. 

you're crying, crying, always sad, upset, lonely, lonely, crying, sad, furious...

"AAARRRGGHHHHH!!!" I scream, angrily erasing the picture of momma and dadda. They are dead, don't remind me of them...

stop, stop...  I am crying now, tears running down my face...

I try so hard...